Meghan Markle makes heartbreaking miscarriage admission as new podcast airs

Meghan up about her miscarriage and having to let go of something you love in her latest podcast episode. In the second episode of her new series Confessions of a Female Founder, the , who set up the non-profit organisations 'Girls Who Code', which aims to increase the number of girls in computer science, and 'Mom's First'.

During the chat, Meghan asks Reshma about her experience of miscarriage while setting up and running Girls Who Code, which she previously had talked about publicly. Meghan also suffered a miscarriage, revealing her heartbreaking ordeal in an essay in 2020, a year after was born. also wrote about it in his memoir Spare.

Meghan told her guest: "I'll bring this up if you are comfortable talking about it... I have spoken about the miscarriage we experienced. And I think in some parallel way, when you have to learn to detach from the thing that you have so much promise and hope for and to be able to be OK at a certain point to let something go, something go that you plan to love for a long time."

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And Reshma added: "Yeah. I feel like you are reading my diaries as that's really insightful as I don't think anyone has said it that way for me but that's right because here I was for so many years trying to get pregnant, having miscarriages because I had auto-immune issues and I got into this kind of scary habit where I would be in a doctor's office and they'd be like, you have no heartbeat.

"And I should have just gone home and gone to sleep and curled up with my husband. But I would just take a breath and I would just show up in a living room, on a stage and just perform. And often times I was just performing to these children that I desperately wanted and I just got really good at that but it was eating me up inside."

Meanwhile, Meghan and Reshma, who is now a mum of two, also talked about juggling bringing up children alongside work - and the expectation that women "aren't allowed to break" and "have to keep smiling".

Meghan explained: "Oh my gosh, I love being a mom so much, it's my favourite thing. But then sometimes, you're like I just need a break, I just need a minute, but then the second you step in the other room, I'm like, 'let me scroll through pictures of them endlessly on my phone'. And my husband is like 'my love' can you just give yourself a minute, why don't you go work out, or go take a bath. And I go, 'I know but I just want to cuddle them. It is the parenting paradigm, where it is so full on but I wouldn't trade it for anything.

"But I think what's really key about what you said is that in the pandemic, when working from home and parenting from home, completely converged - and it can feel incredibly overwhelming."

The pair also chatted about Reshma's decision to step away from the non-profit organisation, and Meghan reflected on her own time away from the limelight. She said: "When you don't have power you're not important anymore. Being able to let it go and give somebody else that light knowing it was actually going to diminish my power... but that was the point."

"That is a lot of growth. That takes people a tremendous amount of time to settle into being able to do that and to not feel rattled when the phone's not ringing, to not feel rattled when you've stepped out the light so to speak.

"But as you step out of the light you're actually stepping into your own light in a different way and creating space for someone else to be in the light, which is probably the larger purpose of all of us being here."

Confessions Of A Female Founder is the latest in Meghan's flurry of output after her much-criticised lifestyle series With Love, Meghan and her new brand As Ever. She has promised the series will feature "girl talk" and advise on how to create "billion-dollar businesses".

The first episode was released last week on the same day appeared at the Royal Courts of Justice in London for the latest stage in his legal challenge over the level of security he is given when he is in the UK. In the opening episode, Meghan chatted to Whitney Wolfe Herd, the founder of the dating app Bumble. During the chat, Meghan talked about her experiences of being a mum and revealed she suffered from a 'huge medical scare' after giving birth.

She explained: "We both had very similar experiences — though we didn't know each other at the time — with postpartum, and we both had preeclampsia. Postpartum preeclampsia. It's so rare and so scary.

Meghan added: "And you're still trying to juggle all of these things, and the doesn't know what's happening quietly. And in the quiet, you're still trying to show up for people – mostly for your children — but those things are huge medical scares." Whitney replied: "I mean life or death, truly." Postpartum preeclampsia is a rare condition that causes high after birth.

According to the , symptoms for postpartum preeclampsia include severe , vision problems, pain below the ribs, vomiting and sudden swelling of the feet, ankles, face and hands. Without immediate treatment, it can lead to serious complications including in rare cases, convulsions, liver and blood clotting disorders and strokes.